Tuesday, January 17, 2012

The Truth About:
Hey! I have to warn you, this is one of my more serious topics and it might disturb you and possibly change your perspective on me completely. But Ive changed. That New Years resolution thing I posted has really helped me come out of the dark place I once was. But this is a topic very important I feel I should discuss and point out. Its the truth about cutting.
When you here the phrase cutting, what do you first think of? Maybe some emo person with a knife in there hand. If you did, your dead wrong. Cutting can be an addiction to anyone of any social class, and you can use anything from a broken CD to a mechanical pencil to cut. I myself used a hot pink thumbtack. But that depends on the personal prefarance and how far the addiction has progressed.
Why do people cut?
The most common question first asked when someone finds out that somebody they know has started cutting. When a person cuts, it gives them a rush, a feeling that cant be discribed any other way. Some times its the burning sensation of the blade (or whatever you use) or the adrenaline that follows. It makes them feel good and offers as a coping mechanism for the troubles of life. Sometimes its because they hate themselves and they want to harm or punish themselves for something they cant help or control in there lives. It might happen because of depression. Any of these things or more could lead to this habit. But no matter what the reason NEVER I mean NEVER make fun of someone for doing this. It could make it worse.
The dangers of cutting
Cutting can lead to not only damage to your body over a period of time but it can also worsen things like depression. Because not only will you become depressed about the original thing but also cutting. Cutting can also lead to infections of the area, and it can worsen to new levels. Its like a drug. When you first start you always want more. You can cut deeper than what you planned on and can suffer from blood loss and even death.
The effects of cutting
It doesnt just hurt you. Cutting hurts others around you. I seen my best friend's grandfather at the grocery store the other day and I asked him how my best friend was. He asked if I heard what had happened. I said no. He told me last week, she was cutting herself in her room with a pocket knife. She cut too deep and she was rushed to the emergancy room. They almost couldnt stop the bleeding but they eventually did. Now, shes in Jackson somewhere in rehab and wont come back until June or July. I have no idea where she is but I know that I miss her.
My little cousins looked at my arm one day and asked what happened to me. I just said that it was a cat. My little cousin just sat down in my lap and traced the scars with his little fingers. I didnt know my dad knew but I found out he did. One time I seen him crying about it in his room. I felt awful. Not only did he have to deal with losing my mom still but now this. That and the wakeup call I got about what happened to my best friend stopped that addiction for good.
If someone you know is cutting, all you can do is be there for that person and let them know how much you love and care about them. Never ignore them. Be as supporting as possible. Only tell an adult you know wont breathe a word to anyone but the person cutting. Other wise youll only make them feel betrayed and you might accidently make it worse.
If you are cutting, I know how it feels. You can email me anytime and Ill respond as soon as I can:
Ill so anything I can to help you.
And if you think Im lying, this was my arm in November:
Believe me now? But that was the old me. Ive changed And Im Never going back! Through the help of the good lord and great friends Im a new better and happier me! Thanks for all the love, prayers and support! The new me!

Stay Positive!!!!!!
Love you all!!!!!!
Btw my hair is naturally curly but im thinking about getting it straightened. I like it straight every now and then because I like my hair curly but i look awesome with it straight. Which looks better?


  1. oh boy how to say something without saying something bad. i know how it feels. i have never personally cut myself. i have a disease called depression. instead i would wash my hands constantly. i felt so dirty. if i can be of any help, i will. hope u feel all right soon. HUGS!!!!!! :)

  2. Wow! I'm very sorry that you went through that but glad that you're off to a better YOU! We miss you on TLF. Stop by and say "hey". :D

  3. Im glad I helped yall! Gonna put up a video of me singing soon, without paper covering the camera...meaning yall will see what i look like..Nervous!

  4. There's a award waiting at my blog for you!

  5. Hey Gabby! It's great to see you posted on your blog! And to see you on TLF. I really enjoy talking with you. We haven't chatted in awhile- we should do that sometime. :)

    As far as your hair...hmm...both look nice! I really like the straight hair as a change- very pretty! I don't know, both?? Lol!!

    Love, PJS/Nicole