Tuesday, January 17, 2012

The Truth About:
Hey! I have to warn you, this is one of my more serious topics and it might disturb you and possibly change your perspective on me completely. But Ive changed. That New Years resolution thing I posted has really helped me come out of the dark place I once was. But this is a topic very important I feel I should discuss and point out. Its the truth about cutting.
When you here the phrase cutting, what do you first think of? Maybe some emo person with a knife in there hand. If you did, your dead wrong. Cutting can be an addiction to anyone of any social class, and you can use anything from a broken CD to a mechanical pencil to cut. I myself used a hot pink thumbtack. But that depends on the personal prefarance and how far the addiction has progressed.
Why do people cut?
The most common question first asked when someone finds out that somebody they know has started cutting. When a person cuts, it gives them a rush, a feeling that cant be discribed any other way. Some times its the burning sensation of the blade (or whatever you use) or the adrenaline that follows. It makes them feel good and offers as a coping mechanism for the troubles of life. Sometimes its because they hate themselves and they want to harm or punish themselves for something they cant help or control in there lives. It might happen because of depression. Any of these things or more could lead to this habit. But no matter what the reason NEVER I mean NEVER make fun of someone for doing this. It could make it worse.
The dangers of cutting
Cutting can lead to not only damage to your body over a period of time but it can also worsen things like depression. Because not only will you become depressed about the original thing but also cutting. Cutting can also lead to infections of the area, and it can worsen to new levels. Its like a drug. When you first start you always want more. You can cut deeper than what you planned on and can suffer from blood loss and even death.
The effects of cutting
It doesnt just hurt you. Cutting hurts others around you. I seen my best friend's grandfather at the grocery store the other day and I asked him how my best friend was. He asked if I heard what had happened. I said no. He told me last week, she was cutting herself in her room with a pocket knife. She cut too deep and she was rushed to the emergancy room. They almost couldnt stop the bleeding but they eventually did. Now, shes in Jackson somewhere in rehab and wont come back until June or July. I have no idea where she is but I know that I miss her.
My little cousins looked at my arm one day and asked what happened to me. I just said that it was a cat. My little cousin just sat down in my lap and traced the scars with his little fingers. I didnt know my dad knew but I found out he did. One time I seen him crying about it in his room. I felt awful. Not only did he have to deal with losing my mom still but now this. That and the wakeup call I got about what happened to my best friend stopped that addiction for good.
If someone you know is cutting, all you can do is be there for that person and let them know how much you love and care about them. Never ignore them. Be as supporting as possible. Only tell an adult you know wont breathe a word to anyone but the person cutting. Other wise youll only make them feel betrayed and you might accidently make it worse.
If you are cutting, I know how it feels. You can email me anytime and Ill respond as soon as I can:
Ill so anything I can to help you.
And if you think Im lying, this was my arm in November:
Believe me now? But that was the old me. Ive changed And Im Never going back! Through the help of the good lord and great friends Im a new better and happier me! Thanks for all the love, prayers and support! The new me!

Stay Positive!!!!!!
Love you all!!!!!!
Btw my hair is naturally curly but im thinking about getting it straightened. I like it straight every now and then because I like my hair curly but i look awesome with it straight. Which looks better?

Thursday, January 5, 2012

New year, New beginnings

New Years Resolution Challenge:
Hey yall! Looks like its that time of year again. The great New Years resolution. Most people look to things on the lines of outward apperance, finances, etc things to get you set in this world. Dont lie to me now, you know you'll jump off of that band wagon around the middle of the month, you know you will. But this year, I have a challenge for all of you reading this.
I challenge you to make a personal and spiritual resolution this year to improve not your outward apperance or something to bring about earthy gain, but something that will make you a happier you on the inside. Now I challenge you to do atleast one of these things Im going to list here. Once you have decided one(or more) of these, go on your blog, post what your going to do for the new year and blog your progress weakly until the challenge is complete. Then tell how its helped you in your life. And trust me, it will. And I'm doing this too, so your not alone:)
Challenge One: Clean up Around the EdgesThere is something about each of us that we need to work on, no one is perfect. Find three of those things you need to work on and do it. For example, try to be more confident. Or look around you and look at the brighter side of things. Because after all, even though clouds hang in the sky, the sun is still there, isnt it? If you have a sharp tongue, learn to hold it in place and speak softer to others. About once a day take a look around you and count the blessings God has given you. It could be as small as admiring the beauty of a plant to as big as shouting your thanks to God about what he's helped you through(but I wouldnt advise it if you live in a city or the police might get called on you, so yell it in your room:)) Try this for about two months. You might like the results.
Challenge Two: A Change of TuneThis one might be a little bit more difficult, but it has amazing results. Reside to only listening to christian music for a month. Nothing else. At all. Seems kinda hard right? But its not. Here, this is a good radio station that can be picked up all across the US and in other countries. You can also listen to it on your iPhone, Laptop, iPad, etc. I really like this one because christian music is always postive and moving. Itll help you stay positive throughout the day and some of the messages of the songs can help you in ways that I cant describe. Just try it for a month, but youll see a difference thatll last all year.
(thats the radio station online. Itll tell you your local radio station that picks up the klove broadcast. Awesome music)
Challenge Three: Make a Difference:Do something that will make a lasting impression on someone. Do something for a local charity or organization. Stand up for someone, let someone know their not alone. Give someone who's going through alot a hug. Do something to change a life, not just your own. Big or small, showing someone you care effects them more than you could ever know.
Try this for three weeks or so.
Challenge Four: You and GodEvery christian prays a prayer before bed, but is that all you do other than praying over a meal? I challenge you to take twenty minutes out of your day and have quiet alone time with just you and God. No texting your bff, no tweeting, just you God(and if you pray better this way, listen to christian music while you do it) It helps you through the day and helps you in the long run. Try it for a month and tell me what it does.
Pick out which one(or ones) youre gonna do. Well dont just sit there reading this, Do it already!
My advice of the day is be yourself!!!Dont be afraid if someone calls you a nerd I take it as a complement because Im not ashamed of being obsessed with Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Mythology, Music, and Power Rangers:) I know its a little odd that Im 14 and still obsessed with it but thats just me being myself! Got a problem, then get in line. But I warn you its a long wait because I aint changing for nobody!

Until next time
Love yall bunches!!!
Happy 2012!!!
New Years Resolution Challenge: